I'm retarded just cause i am .

I'm a crazy bitch whenever i want to be one .

I smile whenever i want to .

I laugh when i think it's funny .

I cry when im sad .

Like or not it's just me :D

The uncertaincy in me is really killing me .

I feel like giving everything up now , seriously .

I dont wish this to carry on i feel like im mentally totured .

I hate playing mind games with people around me , especially with the people i love most .

There is so many things i wished i could tell you so many things i wished i knew .

But the worst part is that im always kept in the dark like an idoit .

You are making me go crazy and i mean it .

Im not being paraniod but just cause im too used to your presence thats why .

I like you and im serious but if you dont , i can't do anything about it .

I can only stand there and watch how things will worsen as my heart shatters into smaller pieces each day .

It's alright im gonna stay strong im gonna put you to the back of my mind .

I have alot of things i gotta to say , but because it's just too much that , the words i use began to lose it's meaning .

It's meaningless typing it all out . imma crazy bitch thats all i know .

I hate myself for getting too devote to someone and causing a whole crap out of everything .

I WISH I COULD JUST WAKE UP ONE DAY AND FIND MYSELF FORGETTING EVERYTHING ONLY THEN I CAN THEN START AFRESH. NAH MAYBE NOT .

I JUST WANNA END THIS ALL , THATS ALL KTHANKSBYE .