When will you ever come to your senses ?

Don't you think that piglet in the picture is awesome ?

So much for being so naive . Thanks alot dude . You totally drained out every single bit of respect i have in you . I tried to believe you each time i see you that way . I tried to convince myself that nope that isnt true . But i guess you have utterly prove me wrong . I didn't wanted to believe that fact was placed right before my eyes . How can you expect me to not believe that fact ? Whatever . -.- ! I hate you ! Two sided bastard !Nope this isn't to any of my friends or anyone from esss dont worry (:

School today was rather tiring .
Slept early yesterday . Thanks korkor for packing my things ^^ .
English as the first period . Literally toutured by her .
She was scolding us as usual cause we weren't doing any of her work -.-
I dont even understand what the asdfghjkl she is talking about .
Chinese was alright , love mr chew story telling session :D
Oh ya that reminds me , i havent think of what i should say for that one whole minute .
Geography was threathening , i was praying so hard that she wouldn't call me at any moment .
Cause i really dont know the answer ! Guess i needa really memorise and revise hard this weekend.
Recess was like the daily basis we go through .
Home econs was kinda boring and i felt like im in the north pole . I feel like the aircon like to follow me wherever i seat :/ And i will end up freezing like some mad girl .
Life in SFL was really awkward shan't elaborate on it .
One word awkward is all i can use seriously ._.
And timothy and the boys behind were really irritating _l_ you (;
Went to tm with eileen to get our colour paper but this man was like harrassing us like some pedo ewww .
Im really really freaked out by him no joke it's not funny really ! i swear to my heart i will never ever ever want to meet him again T_T
Went to drink gongcha , J&CO yogurt and nasi lemak (Y)
Now home ^^ bye peeps .

I'm retarded just cause i am .

I'm a crazy bitch whenever i want to be one .

I smile whenever i want to .

I laugh when i think it's funny .

I cry when im sad .

Like or not it's just me :D

The uncertaincy in me is really killing me .

I feel like giving everything up now , seriously .

I dont wish this to carry on i feel like im mentally totured .

I hate playing mind games with people around me , especially with the people i love most .

There is so many things i wished i could tell you so many things i wished i knew .

But the worst part is that im always kept in the dark like an idoit .

You are making me go crazy and i mean it .

Im not being paraniod but just cause im too used to your presence thats why .

I like you and im serious but if you dont , i can't do anything about it .

I can only stand there and watch how things will worsen as my heart shatters into smaller pieces each day .

It's alright im gonna stay strong im gonna put you to the back of my mind .

I have alot of things i gotta to say , but because it's just too much that , the words i use began to lose it's meaning .

It's meaningless typing it all out . imma crazy bitch thats all i know .

I hate myself for getting too devote to someone and causing a whole crap out of everything .

I WISH I COULD JUST WAKE UP ONE DAY AND FIND MYSELF FORGETTING EVERYTHING ONLY THEN I CAN THEN START AFRESH. NAH MAYBE NOT .

I JUST WANNA END THIS ALL , THATS ALL KTHANKSBYE .

I may look strong on the outside but im still fragile in the inside so mind you please handle me with care .

I maybe smiling on the outside but my heart is tearing inside me .

I wont care anymore cause im too worn out by everything .

Im just not ready for anything now i guess ? :/

Done alot of reflections on many people advice .

Yeah i guess i wouldnt wanna make the wrong decision and end up hurting myself .

Lastly rumours will always remains as rumours .

What's most important is the truth behind these rumours .

Whether it's really true or not , no one knows except yourself .

And that's me , i could be lying on the surface but deep down i know the answer for myself .

The real enemy that i have been fighting with is myself and my stupid ego .

I'm not up to it , i can't face it bravely and end up running away eventually .

That sucks ! I really hate that feeling when you dont know what to do .

Especially when you feel lost about your feelings and no one understand how you really feel .

They cant help you in any way , you have to figure things out yourself .

You can really feel your heart sinking way down .

Like you're all alone on this path nothing else with you that its .