Inferior.

Im starting to realise that whatever i do now.. be it anything, im just not up to it.

Im not as pretty as her.

Not as smart as her.

Not as great as her.

Not as amiable as her.

I feel im lagging behind in every way.

And i seem to be one step behind in everything i do.

I don't know why, but just.. I hate this feeling.

Everytime when i have expectations for myself, i just can't seem to reach it and accomplish it.

It's just disappointment after another disappointment.

I don't know how i can make myself feel confident about things i do now and most importantly me..

Cause in your heart, im always invisible or maybe just good for nothing.

I really dread myself being this way. Im unsure about the things i want and the thing i need.

But, now, All, i need is just a listening ear. That's all..

I don't understand why things have to turn out to be so complicating.

I wished i could turn back time. But it's pointless.

I thought, i was stronger but it turn out to be the other way.

I thought i could do it alone. Strive my way through with a smile and laughters.

But then again, it's easier said than done.

You're so far from reality. Im left here hanging again.

Its a merry merry Christmas

Another Day out with vanessa to orchard, celebrating Christmas! ^^
A rather busy day with long traffic, crowded regions, road blocks and shopping..
But despite all these.... It was an awesome day out! HEH!

LOVE CHRISTMAS !!
Okay its late gonna sleep now. Night people. Happy belated Christmas!!!~

Give me a break will you?

Holiday is coming to an end.

A new year is starting.

School's reopening.

My homework aren't finish.

Packed schedules.

Im as good as dead.

Sometimes, i really wish.. i could be freed from all these frustrations.

I wish i could run away to a really far place where everything are meant for me. Made for me.

No frustrations, no sadness, no anger, no tears, no lies, nothing but happy.

There's so many things i wish but none can turn to reality.

So many things i wished you could understand, time after time.

So many expectations that turn into disappointment.

But afterall....

I just hope everything turn for the better.

I hope you'll feel better, be happier, smile more, laugh more.

And last but not least, understand how i feel.

Stand in position for once.

Shower me with love for once.

Talk to me nicely for once.

Just be who you're suppose to be for once.

And lastly Please... show me you care for once.

Don't disappoint me any further.