It's been ages since I last posted and I have a sudden urge of posting something, since it has been really tough these days. Okie I can't really use the word 'tough' I guess? Cause I did have lots of fun these few days celebrating my dearest friend's birthday, so I'm in a spot to say I'm happy or I'm not happy. I would probably say I'm neither here nor there cause I do feel happy with a certain group of people. But I practically don't know how i exactly feel too. But I certain about one thing that I'm really blessed to have a friend who is super nice caring friendly it's just great to have her around to confine in and speak to and have fun with cause she has the all quality a best friend need, I would say. But instead of blabbering about those happy times I've spent, I guess I should also the piles of worries I have in my heart, my mind and everything in me. Firstly, Im really not sure how am I gonna handle those torturous days. Truthfully if it was with a bunch of people I'm comfortable hanging out with, im fine with it.. But for the fact that I'm sandwich between people I'm really awkward with i just cant be myself. I understand for the fact that they are much better in that skill than me but it doesn't mean that everything can just go the way they want it to be. Urgh nevermind... Well, but i shall keep myself positive still. I still have at least 3 sweet friends which are exception from them who will go through this tedious day with me. Hopefully, things will go well and i will feel better. Enough about those, secondly i guess im really not ready for tomorrow, It's tedious and I hate doing things like that .Adding to the fact that after those times we're still stuck in there unable leave. Urgh, I just pray time would pass quickly. I can't wait for saturday cause Saturday is the day I'm always looking forward to. I'm able to shop, eat, play, H2H ,talk, have fun and do everything crazy with my BFF. Moreover when saturday comes it would means that I can be free. Although it's not long but I'm like already thankful that there's a actual break for me cause im really exhausted and i really meant physically and emotionally drained. So yes, I do need a break, im not a robot im a human and even robots do spoil after being over used. So same for me, i do still to be 'charged' or else I will fall sick too. So please take care of me, don't push me to hard or i will break. Anyways refering back to my Best friend, im really thankful to have her a my friend. I'm glad i met her, talked to her and went out with her. Nothing could express my gratitude to her but I'm just happy. Happy to be beside her each time cause whenever i'm with her I don't need to pretend I'm someone else. We have the same likings the same taste for everything. And i just love her as much as my family and my other close friends Hehehe. Goodnight, ciaos.