Hello humans , went swensens with amabel on wednesday .
It was super fun like shit . In the beggining it was alright .
Then soon after we kept calling the waiter over cause of somethings .
Laugh like shit after we ordered the icecream . Totally epic .
I snatch amabel biscuit and put it back LOL .
She shoot nut at me which was more epic -.-
And i laugh till i drop my damm spoon .
Then proceed to toliet , artbox and toyrus .
LOL i didn't know how to control a puppet until amabel taught me .
FUNNY SHIT THANKYOU BII <3

Made grover and elmo french kiss . People stare stare we shy shy luh HAHAHA

Play like siao there , doll doll all so scary HAHHHA cry cry cry .

love you luh , you rawk

I know you're a dream because mummy once told me dreams will never come true .

You're just a dream living in the sky with those stars .

While me ? I'm just looking at the stars from afar .

Just like how people star gaze .

Everything is stated so clearly to me but i guess I'm just running away .

Not facing what i should .

But if i have a wish , i really wish you are one of those stars that could fall right before me .

Like how you did once .

Frankly speaking , i really dunno what to post .
Anyways , HI AMABEL ! I shall write a letter to you , since i don't know what to post^-^

Hey babe . Since the first day i know you , i wasn't really that close to you .
Maybe then , we were just classmate or maybe friends ?
But remember once , on our first excusion to health promotion board ?
I had no space to sit , and in the end i had to sit behind with you and vanessa hoo ?
And of course with some other people ?
Yup , i finally remember this with the help of Vanessa H. (:
Alright , let me continue . Then i started to realised that you were super friendly .
But sadly that didn't made us close ><

It just made me realised your existance . Sorry im being real frank here :X
Then around July i started to know alittle more cause you were always with Xuanlin , Jocelyn and VH.
Soon we started to get a little closer :D
Then recently around November or October or earlier, you started talking to me on msn .
That's when when i start to got to know you real better and stuff .
We gotten so close that we even went out together .
Getting lost in a damm bus which eventually still lead us back to the same place we met . Laughing till we cried . Making people stare at us like as if we were freaks .
Made you hold my stuff for a long time and forgetting it's with you .
Once even losing my wallet and had to find around the whole mall .
In the very end it's at the customer's service .
Pranking people with some public phone but failed .
Doing homework together and talking about sad emotional funny happy stuff .
Even buying the same bag for next year !
And lastly i want to say i love you bii <3

AND BLOGGER IS SUCHA BITCH >:

Well , went out with chloe to Bugis 

Superb. Fun day with her , and she made me realised something too . ):

Nevermind shall talk about that later ^-^

Anyways i had a super great day with her . Love you alot okays ? <3>

Well , i guess what you said was right .

I haven't really forget those things , instead i was trying to run away from things .

I know and i've tried , and when i say try , i really did try .

I also know that by running away from things it doesnt really helps .

But what can i do ? I feel so pathetic , look how time have fly passed .

However , how much have i really achieved ? Nothing .

I was trying to to put myself into another disillusion .

And sometimes when some things seems to be so perfect ,

They aren't really that perfect like how they seems .

Instead , it's just a piece of lie ?

Sometimes i really wonder if it's heaven's play , or isit just me ?

Dear Mr Santa ,

I have been a relatively good girl this year .

Though sometimes i do make some mistakes , but i do change you know ?

I know you can see that i make alot of effort to change it right right ? Heeez

Sooooo , in that case i hope you can grant me some wish here .

You can choose to grant me one or even more xD .

I meant like it's christmas and it's like your present giving day so yup .

1. I hope i would get good results next year .

2. Have super awesome friends and life .

3. Well , probably a camera ?

4. Something i have been longing for i think you know (;

5. My own Lappy

6. Happiness

Hmm , im not sure how you can pass it to me but just do .

Because i believe you will right ? HEHEHE ! Thankyou Santa , i love you

Yours truly ,

XOXO Jenelle .

G-dragon looks suppperrr cuteee

안녕하세요 , annyeonghaseyo .
Feeling super bored here , nothing much to do this holiday >.<
Watch WGM , Yonghwa and Seohyun a super cuteee couple awww <3>
RRARRRRRR i've nothing else to say so yupp byebye :D

Hello people , Im seriously super bored today .
Chatted with Shermaine just now .
Heheh she made me laugh like a mad girl O:
Went to collect my spect. yesterday pshhhh.
I look so geeky with spect.s ):

PS : _________, i didn't tell whatever you told me to her.
You said to your friends that I've betrayed you ?
In fact , you should really try thinking who really did .
I'm sure i didn't said anything to her and ,
I even said i couldn't tell her .
If you really think it was me , then so be it .
But one thing i can be super sure of , my conscious is clear .
And what really had you to confirm that i really did betray you ?
Sigh whatever .

I've always thought that you were my everything but i guess now everything have changed you ain't that dream guy i wanted so badly anymore .

Hey people , nothing much to post though .

Having the same routine daily .

Goshh im bored someone talk to me pleaseeeee ))):

I've no more doubt about you and i can finally conclude my perception .
From the very beginning , everything was just a joke to you .
I was just a fool to you being fooled by your everything .
Fun huh ? -.- Let alone seeing your face , itself .
Hearing your name can utterly disgust me .

Hihi people .
Went out yesterday to celebrate Celine's birthday .
With Amabel , Celine , Evita , Eileen koh .
Not forgetting Calries ? Evita's friend who tagged along at first :D
Hmm , meet up with them first then went to buy Celine's CookieMonster .
Next went to Orchard Photospamed .
Went back to Tampinese to have "Dinner"
Wanted to prank call Shermaine but Fail .
Before i even speak the second sentence , She asked me " Yes jenelle ?"
LOL ! Epic >:D
Lost my wallet T_T . Truthfully me and amabel really didn't know how we lost it .
Weird things happened , found it and soon went home . (:

I really have no idea why you're acting like this .

Seriously , i'm sorry .

But with you acting like this i really can't communicate with you in any way .

Because it just irks me somehow .

Be modest , that's the only thing i hope you can be .

Omg i'm really suprise that would happened >.<

I have mix feelings though .

Kinda happy that i've finally talk to you .

Although it's just a few sentences i'm glad .

Hehe ! *Blush .

HELLO HELLO ! ^^ Alright , nothing much happened this few days .

Went out with Debbi on Wednesday and Amabel Thursday .

Fun like shitt . Hehehe me and Amabel were like exploring sg .

Clarkequay > Vivo city > Sentosa > Bus 65 > 2hrs trip > tamp. > home

Lost in the bus WOW . 2hrs to reach tampinese interchange (Y)

Finally reached home at around 9 plus ? :z

Next day went for dance practice ^^ Learnt " Run devil Run "

But ... We're gonna change it to "OH" (Y)

Hmm nothing much to say too byebye folks .

I dunno why I'm feeling this way .
Sigh , why am i always pretending to be alright when I'm not ?
Whenever i see you / your face / your name i get scared .
I get frighten by you , i dunno why .
Acting like nothing's wrong when inside everything seems like a nightmare .
Yes i admit , i'm scared of you . Whenever i walk pass you , that feeling really freak me .
I'm not insulting you but i'm sorry but it can't be help i'm really freak out D:

Gonna keep it simple so yeah .

- Went out with eileen l. , eileen k. and amabel . :D
- Celebrated eileen's birthday .
- Tm > Bugis junction > Bugis street > Illuma > Whitesands > Home .
- At night went to meet sis bf .
- Celebrated Jiejie's 19th birthday ^~^ [ Happy birthday loveya .]
- Now home blogging . Lets let the pictures speak .

Sometimes i really have that feeling that you're just using me .

Using me to gain something out of it and pushing me aside afterwards .

I dunno you see . It's always like this time and time again .

Sigh , while i try so hard to try to fit into everyone , i just can't .

I dunno why , it seems so fucking tiring having to keep trying to fit in .

Tell me what you want , i'm sorry i'm really tired , i can't go on .

I'm worn out you know ? All i ever wanted is just to be happy .

Why are you making things so difficult .

I'm so freaking jealous of whoever that went to the K.P.N.C. T_T
OMG , after seeing the videos , i'm super super jealous ( inserts many sad face ).
RAHHH ! >: Nevermind .
Hahah , i'm currently rotting at home , watching varietys show O:
Nothing much to say also so byebye people :D

Hey you , yes you , i think i kinda like you leh :x

Heheh >< , opps <3

KOREAN POP NIGHT CONCERT !

Godammit ! I wanna go to the korean pop night concert so badly .

Though it has just ended 40 mins ago ><

Sad ttvm . ( * inserts many sad faces )

Went to the airport wanted to fetch bigbang .

Unfortunately , they went by the VIP route .

Saw lots of VIP fans they look very cute with the crown on their head .

They are extremely friendly , talked to them and yeah . ^~^

I will make sure i go to the KPOP concert next year if there is :D

There's seriously no more reason for me to continue .

I'm done here seriously , i'm proud to say i finally giveup .

I've finally lose hope in you because I know i had Enough of this and that .

Seniors , Juniors :DDD

Went out to practice my swimming skills with joycelyn .

Unexpectedly we saw ryan and his friend at the swimming complex too ._.

Swam for exactly 3hr and 30mins .

We were like practicing like crazy , trying like mad .

Finally we learnt all those skills *winks .

Went to meet caryn , yunli and jiamin at tampinies 1 .

Went to bugis junction OMG , i love it there .

Like my paradise kekeke :x Lots of nice neoprint booth and we took some ?

Soon we left at 5 plus . Currently home bye folks .

I'm not gonna care anymore .

Do whatever you want , say whatever you want .

I can't be bothered anymore (:

I'm tired consistanly exhausting myself caring about things like this .

I dun live a life to please people .

I made my own choices , be it you like it or not .

Hmm , holiday is getting boring .
Have been passing my days watching personal taste .
Finally finish T_T I love the show >.< Gonna get back our result in like 2 days ?
I hope i will pass and not retain .
Nothing much to say also so byebye .

A day without talking to you makes me feel weird >~<

Art is driving me way crazy .

Complicating concepts RAHHH ! >:

Maths paper 2 tomorrow , i pray it wouldn't be a killer >~<

Rot at home for the whole damm day .

It was freaking boring having to do nothing except for watching TV .

And TV and more TV ! kekeke .

But i didn't neglected my studies so yeah ?

Hmm nothing much to say too so byebye . ^~^

Let's just make it clear , till the very end you still don't trust me don't you ?

Sigh i dunno anymore , here i am faking a smile .

I pretend i do not know anything .

Lying everything is alright .

But deep down in my heart ...

Everything proves me wrong .

BEAST !

Hehehe , beast is finally back with their new album . I love their new song breathe .

Well i have not much to say too byebye .

Alrights , so ermm . Started the day off normally ?
Geography paper made me panic like crazy .
But afterall the paper was soso .
The section a & d were easy but the section b & c were driving me crazy .
I finished the paper till the very last minute and that is badbad sgin >< .
Well nevermind , the paper is over can't do anything about it .
Waited for eileen koh at the foyer because she went for dnt hehe <3
Then went mac to eat with eileen lim and eileen koh . <3

We all didn't wanted to go home so early so we went tm to shop and play :x
People this is called destressing :DDD .
So while shopping me and eileen lim bought the same file we've been longing for , teehee xD .
Went home at around 12 and now home .


To my pretty babe :
Cheerup yeah ? i'm here for you always and always . I want you to remain hyper .
Not like this alrights ? And and i'm sure things will be alright . Lovelove x infinity
Hmm and dun feel guilty abt that thing , i know it's unintentional i dun blame you and if you dare feel sad or guilty i not hesitate to get mad with you ><>

Maybe from the very beginning everything was just a lie .

But i can't stop thinking , As I re-read the emails , the notes and the conversations .

Then i started to realised i haven forget you a single bit .

I knew how much you still meant to me .

& The countless time you have broke my heart unintentionally .

It's been so long but i still cry over you .

I dunno why , i'm insane or am i a fool ?

I kept lying through everyone faces that i dun care about you .

In fact , i do . This is driving me crazy .

I want to forget and put it behind so badly but i just can't .

Exams is coming , wait no . Exams have already arrived .

I'm mugging like crazy like everybody else .

I hope i can pass , i still have lots of topics i need to cover so yeah . :/

Hmm currently pissed off with someone . _l_

Sigh , i really dunno about you already .

Seriously sometimes i wonder why must you come into everything ?

I'm meant like why must you always want to have everything i have .

And know everything i know even if the matter doesn't relates to you ?

Forget it , drop that matter i shall be forgiving ..

I dunno if you still trust me or not but i seriously didn't say that .
I'm not saying these to complicate things further .
But i just want you to know that i didn't say it or side her or tell her what you say .
You can choose to believe me or not
I can't force but i thought to myself that day shouldn't best friends have trust in one another ?
And you as my best friend why didn't you trust me than her ?
And the reason why i treated you so cold the early part of today and yesterday
was merely because i felt awkward .
Yes the misunderstanding has been cleared but do you still trust me ?
Well i really do cherish this friendship as much as you do .
And that's mainly the reason why i cried was because,
I didn't wanted to lose this friendship we've made and the trust we have built .
& also because i was utterly dissapointted that you thought i said that and did that .
Although now everything seems to be alright again but i would like to say this .
Because i hope like no doubts between each other anymore .
No more secrets and no more awkwardness .
And i still treat you as my bestest friend !

And another matter to another person .

To : ___________

You have change that's not the person i used to know .

Not that kind and caring person i used to know .

I'm seriously dissapointed in you .

I'm seriously confuse now .
I swear i didn't tell whatever you told me to her and ect ect .
You can choose to believe her or you can choose to believe me .
I can't force you . But i seriously swear i didn't say anything .
Sighh , I seriously dunno why things are becoming like that .
I really dunno what to do now . All i can do is to just smile and look away .
I do not hate you , dun get the wrong idea neither i dun friend you or what .
Just that , i seriously dunno how to become myself again after this incident .
I feel things are getting so complex .
I really really hope that everything will go back to normal .

Awkward day .__.

Alright school started out crappy and ended up crappy .
Art CA2 i've flunk . WTF ! i did the things and i still fail . Forget it -.-
Geography , nothing much .
English , bored like ttvm ?
Recess as usual ._.
Chinese was the most slacking one .
Had literature test x.x Pheww it was opened book i got 7/8 for the MCQ hehe .
Science , boring and messy due to many paper being given back .
After school , had oral . Sucks to the hell manzxc the waiting was like ...
The teacher that i talked to was like errr..
I think i'm gonna fail sighh . Nevermind i'm prepared for the worst xD

It's driving me crazy !

Everything now seems so vague .
I dunno how much longer i can hold .
EOY is coming , i'm mugging like crazy .
I'm afraid i wouldn't do well this time sighh .
Nevermind it's alright , i will strive and work hard these few days .
Hwaiting . (:

I just found out something which me me regretted everything so much .

Sigh , i should have seriously cherish .

FML ! ><><

I love you , i'm sorry .

Now i understand the things you have been trying to bring across to me .

I'm sorry i was slow to find out now .

Yes it's too late to regret but still sigh D:

Suppose to study with joyce and vanessa today .

But mummy didn't allow D:

So , I've to stay home and mug my homework and stuff .

Imma a good girl girl .

Alrights , it's i have to continue mugging ciaos people xD

Seriously i do not know what's happening .
I'm like in a dilemma not knowing what to do .
Everything is like falling hard on me , everything came stumbling down .

I kept telling myself , everything gonna be okayy i've to stay strong .

But nothing's helping , fuck this world i dun even know who i can confront now .

I'm seriously fucked up .

I didn't even know what i did wrong .
I'm tired of always forcing out that smile on my face .
Sometimes i really wonder if i should make myself happy by just saying it out .
Or please you people by keeping it in , just to make you people feel happy ?
Sigh , i'm really tired . I'm on the verge of breaking down .
Truthfully i wanted to stand by you all these while .
However whenever you're with them i didn't wanted to interrupt you .
I feel so " extra " , there . I can't help it .
So i went ahead to find other people not knowing you were there complaining about me .
Hah , so all these while am i a fool ?

Let's start with school today .
Went school , assemble as usual .
Had Art for the first period >: It was damm stupid had to had some contract thing ?
Geography made me insane , i was so effing tired . I wish i could sleep then .
English not that bad was like usual .
Recess like normal .
Chinese as per normal nothing much to elaborate .
Literature went to computer lab had this spider hanging in mid air scary >:
Science GG in the test . I'm so gonna fail it for sure x.x
I did study but the paper was so hard D: Whatever can't give a damm anymore .
What is done is done i can't undo it so nevermind :D I'm optimistic .
After school ate lunch in school . Bused home .
Now chatting with celine <33333>

G-Dragon ! <3

2NE1 ! <3

Saw that picture up there ? Yeah that's right , 2NE1 is finally back with their 3 hits song .

1. Can't nobody .

2. Go away .

3. Clap your hands .
I love their new song , it just keeps repeating in my mind :DDD .
CL looks really hot in the MVs .

Next see that first picture up there (Y) G-dragon looks so damm effing hot with his red hair .

Cute like hell ! I love him to the max :x Hope bigbang will make a comeback real soon xD .

Alright let me start with my proper post now .

Woke up at 5am today , i couldn't get to sleep . I dunno why D: .

Blast song into my ears . 5.30 went to bath prepared to go to school .

Mad with my stupid fringe . Decided to just leave it and bused to school .

Assemble and all . Lesson Lesson Lesson .

Recess .

Lesson , Lesson , Lesson .

History teacher ; Miss keeran is gonna leave . Sigh .

Again this is like the fourth time we're changing our history teacher . -.- .

Went home and now blogging .

The day you told my friend you have stop loving me was the day my heart died .

The dream i have been living in all these while have finally come into an end .

Maybe what they said was right , every beautiful story always have an end .

Be it a beautiful ending like how it begin or a tragic ending .

Well , i guess my story ended tragically .

But I'm glad at least it did happened .

I was happy enough that that dream did came true once .

Though everything seems to be a lie now but I've never regretted loving you .

I'll get out of my naive thinking.

It funny that you have move on but I'm still there holding on .

I guess , it's time for me let it go too and start a brand new story .

ABSOLUTELY LETHARGIC !

Briefly explain about today :DD . Went out for project .
Met eileen at 201 , vanessa at tmart mac .
Ate breakfast there . Bought materials there .
Went safwan house to do our project . Had fun there .
Videoed and more . Ended , went kfc to have late lunch ? Homed .
Mummy said she wants to celebrate korkor birthday today .
Since there's no time on his actual day . Went out for dinner .
Ate BBQ chicken at cloven road or something ? A nice shopping mall ?
Had icecream for dessert . Shopped for groceries . Headed home .
Alright , exams are nearing . I'm mugging .
Trying hard , real hard , even restricting myself from using the com .
But somehow it's not working . As i open the book either i feel sleepy or bored . >o< I just can't concentrate at all . D: I wonder why ?
Poof , Holidays are ending , School is starting , Exams are nearing but there's still so much i've not finish . >:

A day out with zhenghui , justin , brian , shirely , travis and weixuan :DD .
Alright nothing much to elaborate .
Woke up , i wasn't sure if i wanted to go in the first palce .
Slack till brian korkor called . LOL ! ROFL .
I couldn't reconisge his voice and was shocked he know my house number . O:
Rushed to prepare and went to meet them .
First i saw justin and travis then we went to meet the rest at the bowling alley .
They decided to go to the redhouse ?
Walk to the redhouse . It was extremely far and the sun was like so hot ? >:
Me , justin and brian waited outside ? The rest went ?
After they are done , Bused back to ehub .
Watch the grown-ups . Kinda not bad , comedy :DDD
Slack at the acarde while the boys play :>>
Lastly went back home . Kekeke , done :D

Alright so it was exceptionally fun for today .
Watched tv in the morning .
Chatted with Celine and dzul cause we all were bored xD .
Fb through the day till 4 plus ?
Mummy ask if i wanna go out ? Immediately accepted the offer .
I was extremely bored like hell ._. Daddy came with us meaning we got the car ^^
First went to some kind of place it looks kinda old ? totally bored there .
Then walk and walk and finally found our way to some kind of nice shopping mall .
Found a restaurant there called " The ship " ? Its a mainly steak restaurant . ^.^ Hoho .
Daddy said that restaurant is a old restaurant . Quite Well-known in his time ?
Not sure too I love the ambiance in the restaurant !

Mum and dad didn't eat the steak and ate something else while i eat the steak .
Weee , it was SUPER NICE ! Yumyum .

My meal was like the most expensive one among us :x
Mummy treated me and daddy . xD Cost her a bomb sorry D: Hahah .
I suggested to go to bugis to shopshop and buy my things .
Mummy agreed . Shop there till 8 plus . Bought a new wallet and new clothes .
Kekeke . I'm excited . I love my new clothes and wallet . Thankyou mummy .
Lastly went whitesands to buy dinner for jiejie .
Then homesweethome . Now blogging .
Byebye .

I'll move on .

I got no reason to hold on to you anymore .
Neither i got any reason to stay .
I've run out of reason to talk to you .
I guess i'll just face it , I will forget .
I think that is the best solution .
Afterall , maybe i will just treat everything as a lie .
It's just too good to be true .

Hmm , where should i start ? Alot of things

happened today

Alright lets start from the beginging .
Woke up late for school , intended not to go but still i went .
I knew i was feeling moody from the start of the day but can't skip school due to that .
Bused to school , fucked up . Reached school , talk talk talk ? Assemble .
Lesson blah blah blah . Recess , as usual with my dearest clique Talk about something undesirable , i cried ><
Ps : for the sudden breakdown and thankyou for your concern :DDD .
I love your ttvm .
So it was extremely embarrassing , walk my way to toliet cried my heart out . D:
Got comfortting from eileen <3
Emoed my way through the lessons and the day . Sorry .
I didn't meant to bring your mood down with me too , i'm really sorry .
Next didn't went for chinese dance decided to do art , went eileen house to finish up my art .
Went to slack and all . Carried that pile of books i looked like as if i was like santa . -.-
Homed . Now blogging xD .

-Thankyou eileen lim , eileen koh , celine koh , danielle , shermaine , joycelyn .
For confronting me xD . Ps if i missed you out ? Thankyou anyways .

My legs are aching like hell shit .

Out with Chloe today . First went to central to photocopy some things for jiejie :D Next we went to white sand to take neoprints :D . Went to buy chocolate yogurt yum yum . We decided to walk to ehub since it's quite near . So chatted on our way there . Wanted to see the Mona-lisa but didn't cuz it's kinda freaky and expensive . Went to take the x-rider . LOL ! ROFLMAO , i thought the bubble flying around was fake until one bubble pop on my hand . :DD Went to pasir ris park . Ended up lost there . It was practically pathetic , we both were like dehydrated , tired and lost . Was like a stupid maze . So we walk and walk and walk and found the entrance back . Went to ehub to slack again and next walked back to white sands for dinner . The spaghetti was nice ! After having dinner walked to the playground . Play the seesaw and swing was fun ttvm . My leg was like invested with sand :x Walked back to ehub . Saw kelvin korkor with his gf and friends at the traffic light there . Said hi . Bused back home at around 7 plus . Home . Now blogging , I'm tired ciao people .

Exhausted me ! >:

Alright proper post , about yesterday and today .

Yesterday :
Went school as per normal . Had lessons as per normal . Maths as usual the problematic one . Skipped ASP for rehearsal for teacher's day concert . Wasn't that great as i thought . Some things happened in between which made my mood go down down down . D: After rehearsal was as bad after hearing some bad news . Totally felt like crying . Control cuz it's gonna be extremely embarrassing . Emo-ed throughout the journey to TM with Eileen and joycelyn . Sorry for being so emo but seriously i can't help it . D: Bought Li Lao Shi present then went back home .

Today :
Went to school with a big bag of present for li lao shi :D People keep staring haha i think cuz it's very big . Board the bus saw adli , shy ! Smile to him , he remember me :DD Happy then wanted to go down the bus that stupid Springfield guy purposely walk so slow then finally when i reached the steps , the bus door close -.- Stupid . After that had aces day , tied pink ribbon on my head . Love it , it looks so cute on everyone especially the boys . Run like siao but i was the last D: Feel so guilty make the whole group slow . Sorry D: After that went to makeup and all . Had performances . Change out went to give presents . Removed makeup . Lastly went to TM to eat lunch with Joycelyn , Caroline and Eileen . Wanted to take neoprints but no home clothes D: So yeah . In the end went home . Wanted to take bus 81 but when i went there i was the only one there . So i walk back all the way to bus 39 . The bus came but the bus haven reach the point . The old man beside me said " You dun want to go ? The bus is there ? " Wtf the bus still so far . So i said " the bus will come here . " He repeat his sentence again . Then i was like " No no never mind you go first " Then the bus came he board the bus i was behind him and he saw me saying " I thought you dun wanna board the bus why you still come ? " I was like " O.O ? " Speechless . Went home and then now blogging .

Well , let's see how long you and your "innocence" can hold .
In the end you're just a bitch who goes around bitching about people .
Yeah i know your acting skills are great . But let me tell you , it doesn't hold for long .
Trust me . Truthfully to be honest , there are many out there hating you .
Whatever it is , if you can't be perfect stop going around bitching about people .
If you're just a bitch like those out there ,
Try reflecting on yourself first before saying others .
Do you know why ? Because you maybe the worst among all the bitches .
I never expected i would feel this way towards you
You made me feel so disgusted about your facts .
However thankyou for letting me know your true colours .

DO I HAVE TO FAKE A SMILE LIKE AS IF NOTHING

HAS HAPPENED?

School's starting tomorrow , i've not even started on my homework .

How great yeah ? Gonna be mugging it later . xD

I'm feeling so stressed up . Things haven't been going right .
Mood recently is super down i'm trying to force a smile out on my face .

Trying to be as hyper as i can be .
But no matter how hard i try , it isn't as easy as i thought .
It's not easy to get a place in everyone's heart too .
Well , i'm starting to feel that i've lose everything .
Sigh . I'm really sick and tired of facing the same thing everyday .
If only i could turn back time .
Maybe what ______ said was true ,

Maybe i should go up to you and tell you how i really feel .

But it's easy to say but hard to do .

Whatever it is , i just hope things will turn out better .

I'M UTTERLY SPEECHLESS

Boy , i miss you . I dun care anymore , i really don't .

I know i haven been keeping my promises by saying i would forget you .

But till now , i have finally realised .

Forgetting you isn't as easy as forgetting to bring something .

And if i could rewind time , i would boost my courage to tell you

I love you , instead of asking you what you mean . I was wrong please forgive me .

Fucking bastard , please luh it's seriously none of your business . You want talk big go somewhere else luh . Everytime also come infront of me talk crap . What the fucking hell you want ? Come on luh , get a life .

I'm seriously need some rest now . Today was a unconfortable day , had the intention to skip school but decided not to . Imma good girl xD English was alright , maths was horrible i couldn't understand a single thing adding the pain from my head is utterly BAD ! D: Science as usual , SUPER boring >< ! Recess today was a quiet one . Next chinese LLP came into our class O: Had to put on a "mask" and become a extremely good girl Hmmpft i dun like it at all ! History was alright though we had to do homework and all . Chinese dance is SUPER TIRING today . She changed and added alot of new steps to our dance . Practically hard ! Until now i'm still blur about the dance steps and all . I seriously have to start mugging my homework from tomorrow . Ciaos people , i wanna get some rest !

I’m falling in love with you again ,Is fate always that cruel ?

I told myself tearing for you isn’t worth but my heart think of it another way .

I’m gone , I’ve practically lose myself to you .

Promise me you will stay by me will you , cause I need you .

Why ? Why must you always step into my life .Why did I even meet you ?

We’re moving around in circles meeting the point we have once stepped .

Regaining the pain we have once felt , it hurts but I somehow like the way it hurts .

You always said sorry and sorry and sorry , but all I hear was a sorry .

Nothing more , sometimes I really wish I could get something more sincere

Rather than a sorry each time .Well , if you’re just going to toy me once more .

Making me go through the pain to forget you once more .

Then just shut you crap because I would rather give up the thought of even loving you .

Than to get hurt once more .

I’m really confused , vexed , frustrated . Now you tell me what you really want .

You ignore me awhile ago and now we’re talking to each other like as though we’re love birds .

I can’t hold anymore longer .I’m tired of your crap , I’m really tired .

I’m on the verge of breaking down do you know . Do you ever understand ?

You say you can tell I’m troubled but why aren’t you caring as much as the others ?

Sometimes I really wonder what am I to you ? Do you even love me .

Or are you saying all these to me just to convince me ?

Seriously tell me what you want ?

Let the pictures do the talking .

1E3'10 ! ♥

Hello people ! As you can see the pictures above we had lots of fun for the past two days . We really enjoyed ourselves . Had time bonding with lots of people too , not much things happened though . Chinese dance today was kinda tiring , she somehow changed our dance steps ? ]'; It was so last minute , now i've to remember it all again . Sigh . The week ahead it's gonna be kinda pack and busy so i'll not have much time to blog too . Well , i'm hoping for a break asap . ^^ Can't wait for tomorrow i will be going out with eileen lim xD hehe . But whatever it is , ciaos people . I'm tired Dx

Unlock my heart , teach me how to forget .

I'm fucking pissed off , i have reflected lots of things today . I've really regretted about complaining about you caring last time instead of cherishing whatever i have , until losing you . Well now that i've lose you , i'm really missing the past . Yeah , you can't bring back the past , it's over . I'm sorry i haven cherish , i'm sorry i can't forget you , i'm sorry i still love you . Lastly , i'm sorry i can't face you anymore because whenever i do , i lose my confdence , my emotions go wild , my heart feels extremely heavy as though i've lost myself . Whatever it is , i'm sorry .

You will never know how hurting it is until you really experience it .

If only i could run away from reality

Have you ever got the feeling of being so unwanted ? It feels like as though You're not important to anyone in this world anymore . The whole have abandoned you there all alone by yourself . Even Time didn't waited for you to catch up and just move on continuously , unexpectedly leaving you there . Yes right there . It felt so lonely the nights seems extremely long , i'm on the verge of breaking down . No one understands me how i feel , they treat my words like as though it's rubbish or maybe my words are immune to you people not having your to show much concern to whatever i say . I'm on the verge of breaking down . I feel so helpless . If your concern to me was just something you have been forcing out from yourself then forget it , i dun need you to show "concern" to me like this . It looks pathetic as well as me feeling so pathetic . I really don't know , well anyway i don't wish to know . In your eyes , i've always been the extra one never once being the most important one . You can deny everything i said but your actions shows .

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Hello people ! I'm back with my posting :D Heheh CD today was kinda slacking nothing much happened. School was alright ^^ Homework wasn't that much too . But having to have 5 periods of maths tmr , it's gonna be a toture >.< . No chance of slacking since i'm sitting right infront of the teacher's table .

Well whatever that can be done i've tried .

Since it's becoming useless , pointless and even devastating .

I'll let go , i'll move on :D People out there you guys dun have to worry anymore

Jenelle will forget soon ^^Gimmie time ! I'm gald i have the courage to forget ^^ .

Thankyou for pei-ing me when i was down >.<>

FUCK UP !

That feeling ! That kind of undescribable feeling ! ARGGHH i hate that feeling >.<

There are lots of things bottled up inside me and I'm not sure who should i confine to .

I've lots of things i wanna say but i dunno how should i start or how should i say .

Neither i know if the people who is lending their listening is willing to listen to me anot .

How I wish everything was a fairytale

But in life there isn't such a thing known as fairytale but reality .

I'm scared to face reality because reality is something scary it shows the truth .

Whether you like it or not it's fated to be there .

Sometimes i really wish that i haven existed .

Maybe my presences isn't that important . I'm not sure D: Nobody seems to understand me .

Forget it ! I finally know that you ain't true

Whenever you had problems you would always come to me .

But when you dun you just push me aside like nobody's business .

I'm not a toy . You're seriously pissing me off manzxxzz .

Yo people what's up ? Hehe , today was alright slacking the whole day . Had mac for lunch and pizza-hut for dinner :D It was a boring day though . Look at that picture above kekeke , it looks like a retarded rabbit with ears at her cheeks . But someone just dun agree with me >: BUNNY :D I'm fucking bored >.< !

What do i do ? I keep on crying .
I'm so hurt because of you .
Why do i keep crying when i think of you ?
When i look at your pictures again , i live my everyday with thoughts of you .
I didn't knew it would hurt this much .
Neither did i knew i would miss you this much .
I can't walk another step .
When i try to push on , i suffer .
When i look at you why do i feel so hurt and scared ?
Everynight without you feels so long now .
I want to see you so much .
Please stop making me suffer . My heart aches whenever i hear or see you .

Finally took up the courage to tell you whatever i wanted to say .
I'm not sure if it's the right thing to do but i guess it would be fairer to you if i told you .
Even if things can't work up anymore at least i finally said everything out .

Yeah, Since you went away things hasn't been the same.
In my heart all i got is pain
To loose you, i can't maintain
Sunlight moonlight you lit my life
Days passed without you but i still can't forget you
Let me be the cloud hanging above you will you ?
Raining on me i've miss your touch
Nights get longer and it's hard to clutch
We're apart and that breaks my heart
Boy , you're my world
In time my love unfurls , Till i'll then wait for you , i promise .

Back to school , school was alright then . Nothing much happen though . GAHH can't esss find better teachers to teach 1E3 ?

I want to forget but somehow my heart keeps clinging on to you . Baby , i really can't forget you .Sigh You treat me like as though I'm transparent , i wanted to talk to you , but i was afraid . I wanted to ask but i was scared . Tell me how ? A moment then we were so close but then later we become like strangers . At least i should know what happened in between yea ? I'm in such confuse state , ever since you leave me there all by myself . Nothing have gone right . My whole world have turn upside down . It's like the whole world came tumbling down on me . I really do not have the strength to carry it up without you . My courage , my love , my everything came tumbling down .

It's such obvious lies .
I dun wan to hear it out .
Do you really think that i do not know what's happening ?
Do i look like a fool to you ?
Forget it i'll leave without a care and end this thing .
I'm through with this , i'm gone
If you were gonna be like that why did you even wanted to meet me ?
I trusted when you said you were busy even when i wanted to see you so badly i waited .
I was crazy , i lost my mind .
I fell for it again and again .
I'm sick and tired of your endless crap .
Forget it , i'll leave .
It's funny do you really think that you're the only guy ?
Even if you hold me , it won't matter now .
I only love you and you only .
The tears i cried for you were such a waste .
I'll meet some other guy some day . I'll be free of sadeness day and night .
I'll live my life without even thinking of you bye~
Forget it i'll let him live the life he wants , i don't care anymore .
Don't even dream of holding me again
So give me time i'll forget i hope ?

Boy ,

I'm confuse , but whatever it is , I'm sorry .

I'm didn't meant to hurt you . Just that i thought i should tell you first instead of telling you when you have fall for me more . It will hurt more wouldn't it ? I'm sorry that's all i can say . >.<