I thought you were someone who understands me well, really well.
But i was wrong, that's not the case.
In fact, how well do you really know me?
Just, the surface of me?
I really hate that feeling when you're actually feeling very miserable, so miserable that you wish you could blurt out all your feelings, your anger, your everything.
But at the very end you can't.
Just cause.. Just cause, you can't. Yes just two pathetic words I CAN'T.
Despite all the anger, misery and every fucking reason that caused you to feel extremely uncomfortable, you still have to force the slightest smile out, on your face.
But actually, deep down inside that smile, everything's fake.
I don't know, my heart feels very heavy.
You change. Yes, i know everyone change.
But within such a short time, this drastic change is too much for me to accept.
I kept telling myself, it's okay.
But how okay can i really be?
I know very well, inside me, im not okay.
But who cares? Who will even stop to care even if im okay?
And even if someone would i doubt i can even open up to them to say "im feeling terrible."
I don't ask for much, i just want someone to be there when i really need them.
I want someone i can hold on tightly.
I want someone true to me.
Is it too much to ask for?
If it is, then im sorry, but i really yearn someone like that.
