I'll prove to you that I'm better off without you .
I'll prove to you that even without you i still can laugh and smile without faking them .
I'll prove to you , i can find someone better than you . Someone who worth more than you .
I'll prove to you that I'll gain back everything I've once lost .
I'll prove to you that i will find back that old me : that girl who never fail to smile no matter what .
I will stop avoiding you , pretending I'm in a conversation just because i wanna hide my presences from you .
Everything will go back to it's original state back to the state when i haven't known you .
Maybe that's when i really have peace with myself .

Hmmm .... i've nothing to say so byebye .

I really want to end this all .

Just stop it please please im begging you please .

Im not feeling any better with you like this .

Seriously , if i had a choice i really hope i could end it all .

Once and for all . At least i dont bring agony to people .

Tired of all these , tired of you , tired of all this fucking things .

YES , im always a trouble to you people .

Im always like this , it's all because of me alrights ?

THANKS for letting me know .

Yeah so finally after all this , im still going in circles .
The empty space there was filled with memories , a shadowed of you appeared .
I smiled , then realising it was just my hallucination .
As i resisted tearing those things away , i kept it close to me
I know its wrong to still keep them with me .
Cause maybe everything there don't exist anymore .
Then again I Saw you from afar there was nothing i could do .
Instead i could only give you an awkward smile and walk away .

I can't put it behind neither can i keep you with me .
ARGHHH whatever !

Right now i really wish i could twist and turn everything around .

Even if i were to just stand at a side to see how that "once a upon a time" , story continues .

I would be more than happy . But just something are irreversible.

Im not sure if im suppose to be happy with things like this or not .

And sometimes inside some smile there bound to be sadness .

Everything is shown beneath those actions and speech .

It's pretty obvious , that everything has change isn't it ?

Yeah i've unintentionally re-read those messages .

Then i thought , was it my mistake ?

Was it my mistake for all these to happened ?

Or isit just me and you , which eventually led to this happening ?

But i know whoever it is doesnt make a difference now isn't it ?

I've seriously have to put everything behind .

Look forward stop thinking .

My emotions are all running wild , im seriously going insane .

With this carrying on i will really go insane .

It's always like this and it didn't change ever since then .

PLEASE GOD DAMM PLEASE , one year one bloody year has past .

It's a new year isn't it ? Can i not have hell anymore im seriously tired of this .