I fall for you alittle bit more everyday .

School first week is gonna pass soon :/ .

Damm it's only the first week and yet im already feeling so restless .

I dread that fact that i have to wake up early in the morning finish my work on time and stuff .

Nah , but it's okay im gonna be persistence .

CCA is tiring me out , new coach came . New warm-ups which could literally kill me on the spot .

Flexibility is one thing im not good at . I guess i needa work doubly hard on it .

Butttt , my whole body is already aching like nobody's business and i still have cca tomorrow.

Well , i guess i really need a good night sleep .
So i can throw away all my worries and troubles and smile my day off in my dream :DD

If we were meant to be im sure we will be .

Hello folks ! Havent blog for pretty long , so i shall update it now :D
Well i kinda found out alot of things this past week . Reflected on somethings too .
I kinda find myself really dumb and retarded sometimes . LOL but it's okayy .
Cause im still JENELLE . LOL ! Hmm feeling confused but i will let nature take it's course (;
If it's meant to be it will , even if it isn't now , eventually it will still be .
Ok , i've been going out these past few days and im really really tired .
Im mentally and physically worn out . Im not joking .
But my mind still have alot of thoughts running in high speed in my brain .
I wish i could just pause it for alittle while but i can't .
That makes me feel really pathetic and i really mean it .
Im physically tired cause of the constant late nights and going out stuff . I.NEED.A.BREAK.
-warning-IM DEPRIVE OF SLEEP !!! -warning-
But im still happy and filled with Yay-ness and i didnt regretted tonning till 5plus am with my dearest (:
However waking up at 8 plus am as i need to go out .
It was seriously miserably tiring but it was F.U.N :DDDD okay im blabbering crap here dont mind me . T^T
Well okayy bye i dont have anything to say . Meet me in my dreams (: OTW TO DREAMLAND

Maybe i got too carried away

You'll never understand how i feel .
There's so many things i wished i could tell you but i can't .
That feeling when you thought you had everything and yet it dissapeared in a blink of an eye .
Well , i guess this is really the end ? I can't stand it anymore like for fuck i have to put up with this and carry on with life like this ?
It seriously just makes me feel so pathetic like im so desperate over things .
I'll just think of it as a joke maybe that will at least make me feel better ?
Forget about everything a goodnight sleep will do me good .
I have to get over with things .
All i wanted was a happy story yet it's was a total turnover .
Well let's wait and watch , let's just see how pathetic im gonna turn out to be .

I guess im really too devote to you that i forgot how cruel reality can turn out to be .

I feel everything fading , things weren't like this last time .
Maybe I'm expecting too much huh ? Yeah that must be the case .
I have this emptiness inside me without you but i still have to past my day smiling .
Though a little gloomier but still surviving as i past my day .
Well , this wasn't that bad like i thought it would turn out to be ?
Although i have been constantly checking on my phone just for your damm message but still I'm fine here .
Missing you alittle more as the days gets longer , praying on every 11.11 just for your name to appear .
Maybe i have to just get over it , it's just another day like how it used to be in the past right ? :D
So at the end of the day I'm still wishing that you were here but again it would just disappoint me whenever i put my hopes too high up .
Especially when everything comes crashing down at a time .
I guess im alittle too devoted to things that i forgot what's reality .

Maybe i should try backing off alittle ?

I really hate it when i want to talk to you so badly but yet i can't

I'm bored ! Super uber uber bored . Im rotting at home for the past 2 days WITH A STUPID FEVER AND COUGH THAT COULD LITERALLY KILL ME LOL ! I can't wait to get out of my house soon enough when i get well :D I'm dreading to do my homework and revision though i MUST do and finish it .I feel like I'm slacking this holiday and i really dislike myself for that but what to do . I just don't have that motivation to start all my work and finish them probably within a week ? I feel so lazy and tired whenever i sit on the chair and see all those question . Oh gosh i have to do something about it ! It's already the second week of holiday . I'm gonna use it wisely from today onwards i hope ? I'm gonna mug with homework and stuff and play hard as well . I need a balance in my timing and restrain myself from all those temptations . I know i get distracted easily and stuff especially with my phone beside me so yeah . AND BUHHH-BYEEE

im sorry but this is the only way how i can vent my frustrations

I hate when someone wants me to change myself to someone else that im not .
I hate when someone wants me to do something not of my liking .
Don't change me to someone else im not cause that's just not who i am .
I am who i am , like it or not .
It just makes me feel pathetic if i were to change for you .
I dont think you will ever like it if i keep nagging about your past isn't it .
Get a life man dude !
And pleaseee stop saying like as if you know everything about me .
Ermm excuse me , you don't and seriously i mean it when i say you don't -.-
Just because i dont express my anger towards you it doesnt mean that im alright with you .
Dont get on my nerve cause you wouldn't like it when i show my ugly side to you .

i swear i'll miss you badly .

Do you know how miserable I'll feel without you . Even if it's just for one day ?

I feel so miserably sad . Can you imagine my life without you for i don't know how long ? ):

Will you miss me as much as how i missed you ?

You said you will miss me but i wonder if it's true or not .

How i wish you wouldn't have your phone confiscated .

Dont try to be someone else cause , i love you for who you are

HEYYYY YOUUUU STOPPPPP CAUSE ,i've got something to say : Iloveyou :D

You're always on my mind and everywhere i go you'll be in my heart.

Maybe you may not feel the same way as i do but it's alright .

Do you know how much i cherish every conversation we make?

Even if you were to reply a stupid reply it would just made me SMILE !

That just how stupid i feel of myself .

But i can't help it you see ):

OKAYYYYY ! HIIIII FOLKS YAWHHSSSS !
LOL im addicted to xuanlin's and amabel's YAWHSSSS-NESS .
Killed my bored-ness these few days by going to vivo on Monday and Tuesday consecutively .
Monday was with eileen koh and tuesday was with amabel and xuanlin . <3
Lovee themmmm all. Sentosa was super super cool and super fun .
Photo spammed all the way and did epic stuff . And shit amabel for getting lost in that damm MRT and taking a different route xD
I WAS LIKE OMGGGG WHERE'S AMABEL ! SHE'S LOSTTTTT ! NOT AGAIN ?!
K im not gonna blog in detailed cause im like really really tired .
Feeling sick now , i guess im falling sick soon enough but arghhh nevermind .
I JUST LOVE TODAY SO MUCH ! HAHAH . FUN SHIT ! :D
I guess im repeating it again huh ? Sorry but bear with me for being so repeative here .
Nevermind i should end my post here (: byebyeeeeee

As the days past are we still the same like before ?

K im bored , im bored , im bored , im bored , im bored , im bored , im bored , im bored , im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored. im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored .

Anyone feeling the same way as me too ? k nevermind (:

You're the reason why i smile .

Flashback in my mind , i can't get you out of my mind .
All those insane stuff you said you left them running in my head .
Sometimes i really wonder if it's too good to be true.
Well , i'm really not so sure about this but i know one thing for sure is that "i like you ".
You're the reason why i can pass my day smiling like a damm fool .
It's really amazing how you can make me feel like you're everything i need .
If only you knew the importance of yourself towards me .

CAMP'S OVER AND IM COMING HOME WAIT NO IM ALREADY HOME :D

I have this great phobia of falling for you .
But the funniest thing is that i've already fallen for you .
You made me feel like as if you're everything i need .
And with you around im feel contented , that's all .

Camp day 1 .

It was kinda awkward the first day cause i didn't have any girl friends from my class in my group . I was seriously the only 2e3 girl there by myself . Luckily i had huixin , joy and jiaqian . Nice and fun people . Got through the first day with high elements . It was awesomely fun though kinda scary . The toliet was plainly disgusting . The sight and smell of it just makes me feel like puking on the spot . The food sucks too ! The night walk was plainly awesome , the stars were really pretty really nice . I just can't keep my eyes of the stars . Hmm , so after that went to bath and slept beside Jiaci and huixin , the weather was great had a goodnight sleep .

Camp day 2 .

It was a super tiring day . Had this amazing race thing and the nature guided walk . I was super lethargic and the weather cold literally kill me right away . Had to climb steep slope up and down many times . There was so many insects crawling onto me and it's disgusting . So blah blah blah went on climbing and climbing and climbing . And we go down down down down . Back to the camp . Lunch and dinner sucks again . And me and huixin had to clear the stupid rubbish bin and atika took a picture of me and huixin pushing the rubbish dump . Totally suck to the maxs . Alright so had the campfire , we were totally high there , seriously fun to the max . My group and group 12 had some indian dance . Was funny but fun at the same time . Was running around the camp fire . Cool (: Soon it came to an end and went for debrief . Was super tired so me and joy was trying to keep ourselves awake by singing and dancing like some kind of retarted . Next went back to dom and slept . The place was cramp for sleeping , i can't really move much or i will hit the people beside me , so yeah .

Camp day 3 .

Cleaned the canteen and debreif and homesweethome . Aww finally :D Now i have my comfy pillow (: <3