It just breaks my heart to know that we're impossible

I dont know why but i have this very uneasy whenever i see you .
I know it's really a superwrong choice for me to fall for you but it really can't be help .
I keep thinking about you all day and night and i swear im done and over with him .
Thought about how stupid i couldn't got over him the past few months before .
Now i've finally cleared my thoughts that i dont love him anymore . No more .
It's really over . I've you in my heart now my dear boy .
But seriously , how possible this can be .
I'm 100 % sure that you just treat me like a normal girl or maybe someone you've seen somewhere , somehow in your life .
Walking pass me with a cold stare as i have a glimpse of your sight .
Slowly feelings increase , affections gets stronger but my heart dies each time i see you .
Cause i know , it's never possible between us .

It's a fact and i have to face it isn't it ?

You know that awkward moment when our eyes meet ?
It's always that moment when my heart skips a beat .

Please dont be in love with someone else

I know i can't love you yet i've already fallen so deeply for you .
Reminded myself umpteen times that i can't love you . Knew things will never work out between us ..
But whenever i see the sight of you , i just can't seem to focus on whatever im doing .
My whole attention is driven to you .
You might not even notice me maybe to you im just a girl .
But you'll never know how i ever feel .
The feeling is terrible really terrible .
It is like you know you can't love yet you are already so deeply in love with him .
You can't express anything from the bottom of your heart cause everything is kept within you .
All you can do is to just admire him from afar .
Maybe the least you could do is to just give a really shy smile that don't mean anything to him .
The conversations of us doesn't last a minute at all .
My brain is flooded with you , your name and everything related to you .
Whenever you're with some other girls , i feel uneasy yet i don't even have any right to feel this way .
I have never felt so uncomfortable liking someone like this .
Maybe it's because i know it's really impossible between us .
But what can i do ? I've fell so deeply in love with you .
The words i held back and the tears i kept to myself .
The giggles which was suppose to be loudly exposed was always deep down in me .
Sigh tell me what should i really do .

I hate this i hate this i hate this , I had enough of everything alright . Just because i don't say anything , it really doesnt mean that im alright with it. Your cold replies are like really pissing me off now . K nevermind whatever . -.-

Forcing laughter faking smiles .

Hmm , alright i guess these things are getting really complicating . I'm gonna blog about this once and for all and i really really hope everything will turn out well . I don't wish anyone to feel offended or anything , cause i don't meant it in an offensive way . Maybe this is how i really feel and i just feel like blogging this cause there's too many things kept inside my heart and maybe this is the only way i can express my feelings . And at least everyone can stop bothering about all these Alright so here this goes :

Nobody wished things would turn out this way, i guess . And now even if we blame each other for a certain mistake,things still wouldn't work out isn't it ? Instead things would just turn out to be more complicating and awkward for everyone right ? Why not we all just try put things behind and just stop all these . Don't even mention about this cause at least maybe it will do us all good . Just forget about all those remarks whoever made and try to bond all together . This is happening because some people feel left out . I understand sometimes you feel closer to a certain person but try to balance things out ? Don't leave that person out that much ? And People , stop thinking it's all your fault . No , it really isn't all these would happened not because of one person only . It has to have many many people involve for such a complicating thing to happen . So im really hoping no one would blame themselves or others for this , instead everyone should be responsible for this happening . Think again , We were once all so happy . Laughing and smiling all together as one whole clique didn't we ? I'm sure if we could do that once , we'll be able to that again . All these happened , maybe because we've have some misunderstanding between us . And maybe there may be alot of feeling running inside you but unable to express it to them . But whatever this is , This doesn't affect one person only , it affects everyone . Of course no one wants this to happen and make everyone so upset about this . So erm i just hope everyone would forgive and forget and just be nice and closer to one another . Smile your way through tomorrow no awkwardness just laughter and yeaps :D Evey one stop being so emo about this alright , this just show us that we can have another chance to be more closer and happier together . And sorry if i said anything that offended anyone i didn't meant it that way . So bye babes . (:

Lies , IT'S ALL LIES .

I'm trying to real hard to contain everything inside me . Trying not to have any doubts , trying not to feel that way . But no matter how much i try , it's always proving me wrong each time .

I really dont know what i did wrong .

Neither I do understand what is happening now .

I can tell that you're angry somehow .

But i really don't understand what i did wrong or said wrong .

I'm really sorry if i've did something wrong that pissed you off or anything .

But the very least you could do for me to change is to just let me know what i did wrong .

I'm now totally clueless and vexed .

I'm not sure when i would make you upset again , sigh .