Thursday, December 29, 2011
Inferior.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Its a merry merry Christmas
A rather busy day with long traffic, crowded regions, road blocks and shopping..
But despite all these.... It was an awesome day out! HEH!
Give me a break will you?
Sometimes, i really wish.. i could be freed from all these frustrations.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Why is it just so hard to be a happy girl.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
The first one is the worst one when it come to a broken heart
Monday, August 1, 2011
Happy birthday sot !
Thursday, July 28, 2011
When will you ever come to your senses ?
So much for being so naive . Thanks alot dude . You totally drained out every single bit of respect i have in you . I tried to believe you each time i see you that way . I tried to convince myself that nope that isnt true . But i guess you have utterly prove me wrong . I didn't wanted to believe that fact was placed right before my eyes . How can you expect me to not believe that fact ? Whatever . -.- ! I hate you ! Two sided bastard !Nope this isn't to any of my friends or anyone from esss dont worry (:
School today was rather tiring .
Slept early yesterday . Thanks korkor for packing my things ^^ .
English as the first period . Literally toutured by her .
She was scolding us as usual cause we weren't doing any of her work -.-
I dont even understand what the asdfghjkl she is talking about .
Chinese was alright , love mr chew story telling session :D
Oh ya that reminds me , i havent think of what i should say for that one whole minute .
Geography was threathening , i was praying so hard that she wouldn't call me at any moment .
Cause i really dont know the answer ! Guess i needa really memorise and revise hard this weekend.
Recess was like the daily basis we go through .
Home econs was kinda boring and i felt like im in the north pole . I feel like the aircon like to follow me wherever i seat :/ And i will end up freezing like some mad girl .
Life in SFL was really awkward shan't elaborate on it .
One word awkward is all i can use seriously ._.
And timothy and the boys behind were really irritating _l_ you (;
Went to tm with eileen to get our colour paper but this man was like harrassing us like some pedo ewww .
Im really really freaked out by him no joke it's not funny really ! i swear to my heart i will never ever ever want to meet him again T_T
Went to drink gongcha , J&CO yogurt and nasi lemak (Y)
Now home ^^ bye peeps .
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Monday, July 11, 2011
I may look strong on the outside but im still fragile in the inside so mind you please handle me with care .
Thursday, June 30, 2011
I fall for you alittle bit more everyday .
So i can throw away all my worries and troubles and smile my day off in my dream :DD
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
If we were meant to be im sure we will be .
Well i kinda found out alot of things this past week . Reflected on somethings too .
I kinda find myself really dumb and retarded sometimes . LOL but it's okayy .
Cause im still JENELLE . LOL ! Hmm feeling confused but i will let nature take it's course (;
If it's meant to be it will , even if it isn't now , eventually it will still be .
Ok , i've been going out these past few days and im really really tired .
Im mentally and physically worn out . Im not joking .
But my mind still have alot of thoughts running in high speed in my brain .
I wish i could just pause it for alittle while but i can't .
That makes me feel really pathetic and i really mean it .
Im physically tired cause of the constant late nights and going out stuff . I.NEED.A.BREAK.
-warning-IM DEPRIVE OF SLEEP !!! -warning-
But im still happy and filled with Yay-ness and i didnt regretted tonning till 5plus am with my dearest (:
However waking up at 8 plus am as i need to go out .
It was seriously miserably tiring but it was F.U.N :DDDD okay im blabbering crap here dont mind me . T^T
Well okayy bye i dont have anything to say . Meet me in my dreams (: OTW TO DREAMLAND
Monday, June 13, 2011
Maybe i got too carried away
There's so many things i wished i could tell you but i can't .
That feeling when you thought you had everything and yet it dissapeared in a blink of an eye .
Well , i guess this is really the end ? I can't stand it anymore like for fuck i have to put up with this and carry on with life like this ?
It seriously just makes me feel so pathetic like im so desperate over things .
I'll just think of it as a joke maybe that will at least make me feel better ?
Forget about everything a goodnight sleep will do me good .
I have to get over with things .
All i wanted was a happy story yet it's was a total turnover .
Well let's wait and watch , let's just see how pathetic im gonna turn out to be .
Thursday, June 9, 2011
I guess im really too devote to you that i forgot how cruel reality can turn out to be .
Maybe I'm expecting too much huh ? Yeah that must be the case .
I have this emptiness inside me without you but i still have to past my day smiling .
Though a little gloomier but still surviving as i past my day .
Well , this wasn't that bad like i thought it would turn out to be ?
Although i have been constantly checking on my phone just for your damm message but still I'm fine here .
Missing you alittle more as the days gets longer , praying on every 11.11 just for your name to appear .
Maybe i have to just get over it , it's just another day like how it used to be in the past right ? :D
So at the end of the day I'm still wishing that you were here but again it would just disappoint me whenever i put my hopes too high up .
Especially when everything comes crashing down at a time .
I guess im alittle too devoted to things that i forgot what's reality .
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Maybe i should try backing off alittle ?
I really hate it when i want to talk to you so badly but yet i can't
I'm bored ! Super uber uber bored . Im rotting at home for the past 2 days WITH A STUPID FEVER AND COUGH THAT COULD LITERALLY KILL ME LOL ! I can't wait to get out of my house soon enough when i get well :D I'm dreading to do my homework and revision though i MUST do and finish it .I feel like I'm slacking this holiday and i really dislike myself for that but what to do . I just don't have that motivation to start all my work and finish them probably within a week ? I feel so lazy and tired whenever i sit on the chair and see all those question . Oh gosh i have to do something about it ! It's already the second week of holiday . I'm gonna use it wisely from today onwards i hope ? I'm gonna mug with homework and stuff and play hard as well . I need a balance in my timing and restrain myself from all those temptations . I know i get distracted easily and stuff especially with my phone beside me so yeah . AND BUHHH-BYEEE
im sorry but this is the only way how i can vent my frustrations
I hate when someone wants me to do something not of my liking .
Don't change me to someone else im not cause that's just not who i am .
I am who i am , like it or not .
It just makes me feel pathetic if i were to change for you .
I dont think you will ever like it if i keep nagging about your past isn't it .
Get a life man dude !
And pleaseee stop saying like as if you know everything about me .
Ermm excuse me , you don't and seriously i mean it when i say you don't -.-
Just because i dont express my anger towards you it doesnt mean that im alright with you .
Dont get on my nerve cause you wouldn't like it when i show my ugly side to you .
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
i swear i'll miss you badly .
Dont try to be someone else cause , i love you for who you are
OKAYYYYY ! HIIIII FOLKS YAWHHSSSS !
LOL im addicted to xuanlin's and amabel's YAWHSSSS-NESS .
Killed my bored-ness these few days by going to vivo on Monday and Tuesday consecutively .
Monday was with eileen koh and tuesday was with amabel and xuanlin . <3
Lovee themmmm all. Sentosa was super super cool and super fun .
Photo spammed all the way and did epic stuff . And shit amabel for getting lost in that damm MRT and taking a different route xD
I WAS LIKE OMGGGG WHERE'S AMABEL ! SHE'S LOSTTTTT ! NOT AGAIN ?!
K im not gonna blog in detailed cause im like really really tired .
Feeling sick now , i guess im falling sick soon enough but arghhh nevermind .
I JUST LOVE TODAY SO MUCH ! HAHAH . FUN SHIT ! :D
I guess im repeating it again huh ? Sorry but bear with me for being so repeative here .
Nevermind i should end my post here (: byebyeeeeee
Saturday, June 4, 2011
As the days past are we still the same like before ?
Anyone feeling the same way as me too ? k nevermind (:
You're the reason why i smile .
All those insane stuff you said you left them running in my head .
Sometimes i really wonder if it's too good to be true.
Well , i'm really not so sure about this but i know one thing for sure is that "i like you ".
You're the reason why i can pass my day smiling like a damm fool .
It's really amazing how you can make me feel like you're everything i need .
If only you knew the importance of yourself towards me .
Thursday, June 2, 2011
CAMP'S OVER AND IM COMING HOME WAIT NO IM ALREADY HOME :D
But the funniest thing is that i've already fallen for you .
You made me feel like as if you're everything i need .
And with you around im feel contented , that's all .
Camp day 1 .
It was kinda awkward the first day cause i didn't have any girl friends from my class in my group . I was seriously the only 2e3 girl there by myself . Luckily i had huixin , joy and jiaqian . Nice and fun people . Got through the first day with high elements . It was awesomely fun though kinda scary . The toliet was plainly disgusting . The sight and smell of it just makes me feel like puking on the spot . The food sucks too ! The night walk was plainly awesome , the stars were really pretty really nice . I just can't keep my eyes of the stars . Hmm , so after that went to bath and slept beside Jiaci and huixin , the weather was great had a goodnight sleep .
Camp day 2 .
It was a super tiring day . Had this amazing race thing and the nature guided walk . I was super lethargic and the weather cold literally kill me right away . Had to climb steep slope up and down many times . There was so many insects crawling onto me and it's disgusting . So blah blah blah went on climbing and climbing and climbing . And we go down down down down . Back to the camp . Lunch and dinner sucks again . And me and huixin had to clear the stupid rubbish bin and atika took a picture of me and huixin pushing the rubbish dump . Totally suck to the maxs . Alright so had the campfire , we were totally high there , seriously fun to the max . My group and group 12 had some indian dance . Was funny but fun at the same time . Was running around the camp fire . Cool (: Soon it came to an end and went for debrief . Was super tired so me and joy was trying to keep ourselves awake by singing and dancing like some kind of retarted . Next went back to dom and slept . The place was cramp for sleeping , i can't really move much or i will hit the people beside me , so yeah .
Camp day 3 .
Cleaned the canteen and debreif and homesweethome . Aww finally :D Now i have my comfy pillow (: <3
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Reality is something you can't run away from
This seems more PATHETIC than ever .
I afraid to move on but im also afraid to stay on .
Just cause im afraid both way would hurt ..
Should i accept the reality or not ?
Face it , reality hurts .
Friday, May 20, 2011
Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.”
School as per normal had all the lesson . First 2 period was checking the Long mark sheet . Overall did better than i really expected . Contented but i hope i can do better than this . I almost died in science class it was super boring . Checking and explaining of the exam script. Literature was fun cause ms cheong was awesome . I've always loved her lesson so no exception for today .English class was extremely boring . Watched some kind of clown movie . It's scary and it's plainly weird , throughout the movie i dont even understand what is the main plot about .--.I just see clowns around and hospitals . Geography was alright . After school went to evita house for awhile and played basketball . Saw this 11 year old boy lol tsk just realised im his neighbour LOL ! EPIC like shit . So coincidental
Boy : im from whitesandsprimary Me : OHHHH me too ! HELLO :D Boy : Ohhh i think i know you ! You're the girl who stay in pasir ris . Me : O.o ok .... i dont know you * weird whisper to eileen : how he know ? . Boy : You stay at my block right i 7 floor and you're the 8 floor girl right . Why you come here ?Me : NOOOO . I stay same floor as you la ! you also ! come here for what ? :D Boy : Really ?! LOL k . *smiles Me : LOL k *smiles
So after that took the bus home and we board the same bus with his dad . Funny ! We use to stare at each other last time when we didn't know each other .This time was different in the lift his dad was like "Hi" I was like "Hi " Stare at the boy and he stare at me . Starting laughing and said hi . LOL this is so coincidental .Went home crapped with mummy and daddy . Shopping at night ate strawberry macarons . OMG it's niceeeeee . Bought my shorts happy ^^. Back to home , sleep .
Monday, April 25, 2011
It just breaks my heart to know that we're impossible
I know it's really a superwrong choice for me to fall for you but it really can't be help .
I keep thinking about you all day and night and i swear im done and over with him .
Thought about how stupid i couldn't got over him the past few months before .
Now i've finally cleared my thoughts that i dont love him anymore . No more .
It's really over . I've you in my heart now my dear boy .
But seriously , how possible this can be .
I'm 100 % sure that you just treat me like a normal girl or maybe someone you've seen somewhere , somehow in your life .
Walking pass me with a cold stare as i have a glimpse of your sight .
Slowly feelings increase , affections gets stronger but my heart dies each time i see you .
Cause i know , it's never possible between us .
Thursday, April 21, 2011
It's a fact and i have to face it isn't it ?
It's always that moment when my heart skips a beat .
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Please dont be in love with someone else
Reminded myself umpteen times that i can't love you . Knew things will never work out between us ..
But whenever i see the sight of you , i just can't seem to focus on whatever im doing .
My whole attention is driven to you .
You might not even notice me maybe to you im just a girl .
But you'll never know how i ever feel .
The feeling is terrible really terrible .
It is like you know you can't love yet you are already so deeply in love with him .
You can't express anything from the bottom of your heart cause everything is kept within you .
All you can do is to just admire him from afar .
Maybe the least you could do is to just give a really shy smile that don't mean anything to him .
The conversations of us doesn't last a minute at all .
My brain is flooded with you , your name and everything related to you .
Whenever you're with some other girls , i feel uneasy yet i don't even have any right to feel this way .
I have never felt so uncomfortable liking someone like this .
Maybe it's because i know it's really impossible between us .
But what can i do ? I've fell so deeply in love with you .
The words i held back and the tears i kept to myself .
The giggles which was suppose to be loudly exposed was always deep down in me .
Sigh tell me what should i really do .
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Forcing laughter faking smiles .
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Lies , IT'S ALL LIES .
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Broken hearted like an unfixed puzzle
Hmm , okayy so i have been busy mugging with my homework and stuff .
School is gonna start in like one day ok .. maybe not even one day . Another 20 hours ?
Or even lesser , it can be counted as a good or bad thing . Maybe a rather tiring thing too .
The daily routine with kick off and worst still with Monday blues . HAHAH it will be worst off .
But maybe i should look forward to it in another way ? :DDD
I'm still left with my chinese and maths homework . I should be quickly finishing them NOW .
But somehow my brain and every part of my body is refraining myself from doing so .
Hmm , maybe i should really get started on things do some revision and stuff .
Afterall , I did play alot for the past few days huh ?
Okayyy enough talking about work and work .
TIME FOR A CHANGE IN TOPIC WAKAKAK .
Im like currently talking to my sot on msn ! She rawk ^^
Ohh yeahh and i like finally found my sis korean book .
I'm now somehow learning how to write and stuff pretty cool I shall show you to it on monday ?
If i remember to bring it kekeke ..
Oh yeah and remember i told you i started loving dream high .
But i just realised when i love watching it and watched it that day .
It was practically the last EPISODE ! HOW GREAT CAN THIS BE ?! HAHAHAHA nevermind .
Anyways this post is getting long so ciaos . Byeeeeeeee people .
Saturday, March 19, 2011
OKAYY SMILE OKAY . dont get angry cause of such people .
You still got many other true friends other than her alrightsss !
Most importantly she isn't worth for you to be angry and sad about .
SOOOOOOO SMILEEEEEEEE LIKE HOW YOU USE TO !
She , by doing that , she is just showing that she is more childish .
You dont have to reply her after saying your piece .
Be it whatever she say .
Of course like if when she really realise her mistakes and say sorry .
Then you can reconsider about it .
Maybe just make up with her or something alrights ?
But for now just chillax . Im hereeeeeee :DDDDDD
Friday, March 18, 2011
It's gonna be a better day
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
lol , heheh . Random post
Im posting this cause i'm replying you somehow , shermaine .
Honored right , nono shouldn't ask you , you SHOULD FEEL HONORED ALREADY ! cheh jkjk
Im not angry with you la plea-seeee ! I was busy just nowwww HEHE
YEAHHH AND I NEED YOUR EARS NOW ! ):
SO IF YOU ARE READING THIS PLEASE CALL MEEEE ! HAHAHA
:D Anyways i dont have anymore things to say so kbai :D
Monday, March 14, 2011
It's like an addiction just like how people get addicted to a cup of coffee .
The more i fall for you , the more bitter things get , it's just like how you drink that cup of coffee . But i can't let go although i know it will hurt in the end but eventually i choose to hold on .
I know , i have broken many promises about forgetting you .
I'm sorry but it can't be help , i guess my love for you is worst than an addiction .
So now tell me what , you left me hanging there not knowing what to do .
I'm just left there like an idiot . Maybe the answer is obvious .
The answer can be right in front of my face but i choose to run away .
I don't know , maybe this sounds pathetic to many people out there .
Even i myself find it pathetic , but it just cant be help .
It's like a forbidden love .
Sunday, February 27, 2011
I'll prove to you that even without you i still can laugh and smile without faking them .
I'll prove to you , i can find someone better than you . Someone who worth more than you .
I'll prove to you that I'll gain back everything I've once lost .
I'll prove to you that i will find back that old me : that girl who never fail to smile no matter what .
I will stop avoiding you , pretending I'm in a conversation just because i wanna hide my presences from you .
Everything will go back to it's original state back to the state when i haven't known you .
Maybe that's when i really have peace with myself .
Monday, February 21, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Just stop it please please im begging you please .
Saturday, February 19, 2011
The empty space there was filled with memories , a shadowed of you appeared .
I smiled , then realising it was just my hallucination .
As i resisted tearing those things away , i kept it close to me
I know its wrong to still keep them with me .
Cause maybe everything there don't exist anymore .
Then again I Saw you from afar there was nothing i could do .
Instead i could only give you an awkward smile and walk away .
ARGHHH whatever !
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
School as per normal today . Those people were so freaking sweet .
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Im feeling so confuse , what should i do , should i follow my heart ?
And go with the flow as my heart wants , or not ?
Im like so mesmerize by you now .
Even if i want to back out im not sure if my heart is willing .
I know im not good enough for you and i'll never be .
Im like just a girl who you dont even notice and yup i know that well .
My imagination goes wild wishing you would be mine but it's impossible , i know that .
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Im tired like hell , Went for open house today .
Woke up at 5.30 x.X Performed and stuff .
Went to eat lunch with dearest (: muamua .
Followed up by taking bus back home .
Tv-ed , Fb-ed , Phoned now dinner .
Nothing much to say le IM TIRED AND I WANNA SLEEP SO Kthxbai . :D